And the exercise struggle continues, WHY????
The food portion of my new life is easy. I really don’t desire to cook high fat or high sugar foods. (I never did much of the high sugar because I CAN’T bake, no really I can’t it does not suit my kitchen style of a bit of this and a bit of that and oh that sounds fun.) I still make higher fat meals sometimes but I don’t miss that cooking. I still cook with oil and <gasp> butter, just less of it and most recipes really don’t need more especially with the right kitchen tools. So food in check, I don’t think I’ll be going back to old cooking habits and although I have larger fattier meals when eating out I don’t eat out often and don’t plan to, why waste the money or the calories?
But exercise, all bets are off. Yes, I do it every day. Yes, I dread it MOST days. People tell me to try different things, nope no change, still dread it. Mind you this is dread before the fact, I think about it and I groan and I think of reasons why I could not do it. I know I NEED to exercise. I need it to lose weight, I need it to be healthy, I need it for stress reduction. But needing it doesn’t make me not dread it, maybe needing it makes it worse? hmmm I’ll have to think on that more. I am a competitive person so I set up challenges for myself, this keeps me going but I still dread the act of doing exercise. I kept hoping the first year that the benefits of the exercise, the weight loss, the health improvements, the better moods, would help me look forward to or enjoy it, NOPE. I feel great when I am working out, even if I’m huffing and puffing and sore, (but I still sometimes want to quit early) I feel great after especially when I am faster, lift heavier, burn more or whatever but generally I feel good after no matter what. It’s the before. So clearly this is a mental block, but why? I don’t let myself skip it just because I dread it, so what do I gain by the dread? The last couple of weeks I have worked out a bit later than usual. I’m not sure if this is due to dread or if I dread more because there is more time between waking up and working out. I definitely dread less the sooner I work out but there are a few impediments to working out closer to wake up.
I wake up at 6:20 to take my husband to work, then I come home eat breakfast, wait for it to settle some and work out. I am NOT getting up any earlier I don’t get enough sleep as it is and earlier to bed although an option is pointless because I’m a light sleeper and I don’t sleep well when the dogs and the man are moving around or worse if I do they wake me up when they come to bed then I toss and turn for hours. Once I get up I get dressed, make Ben lunch and head out to take him to work. Once I get back I make breakfast which takes some time to cook as I like steel cut oats and no, reheated is gross don’t go there. Then I read some blogs as the food settles then I work out. Lately the gap to the workout has been growing and I dread working out more. The days with the shortest time to workout = least dread. So obviously I need to get into gear sooner and work out, I guess I could have a snack before I workout and eat after but that just adds calories to my day. I could try skipping eating but lately I’ve been working out over an hour with running and 30 day shred so I’d be starving by the time it was time to eat.
Any suggestions? Anyone else struggle with exercise like this?
For Breakfast I made peanut butter and banana on toast with a glass of milk then worked out, earlier than I have been 😛 I did the last day of week six of couch to 5k. I finished 2.54 miles in 35 minutes and rounded out my mileage in 41:35. I ran for 27 minutes straight, it was supposed to be 25 but I wanted to run 2 consecutive miles and I did. Then I did level one of 30 day shred, feeling ready to move up to level two. For lunch I made spinach salad again because it was so good, and added the last of the pomegranate seeds I had I also cut the oil in the dressing down as I just needed less dressing than I had yesterday, some was left in the bowl yesterday, I avoided that today. For dinner we had leftover beef casserole, the topping was more set up than the first time around, still tasted really good.
Ate 25 of 25 points. Earned 7 activity points.
Breakfast(6.5) –peanut butter (2), sandwich thin (1), banana (1.5), skim milk (2)
Lunch (7)–Chicken (2.5), Spinach (0), mandarin oranges (0.5), pomegranate seeds (1)Balsamic Vinagrette (2), almonds (1)
Dinner (7)–Masa Harina Beef Casserole(6) and refried Beans(1),
Snack (1.5)–mandarin oranges (0.5), greek yogurt (1)
Running Weekly totals used 29.5 of 35 weekly points, earned 31 activity points